I get the best ideas for this blog in the strangest places. And it’s always where I don’t have a pen handy. The bathroom is a good place with no pen or paper. I guess I could keep a pen and then write on the toilet paper. The shower is awkward to write notes. So usually, I think of something to write about, make a mental note, then … forget. Is it because my heads too full or that I’m getting the opposite of younger. Yikes!!!
Last night was filled with stories of kids with problems. However, I did get a story outlining successes – “Hey I just wanted to take the time to thank you and your amazing friends. I don’t think I would have gone this far with out you. You and Amanda and xxxx are like family to me, and I never want to let you down again. When we had our heart to heart conversations, that was a start to something new. I still can’t and I don’t think I will ever be able to see that Amanda is really gone. She has had a huge impact on my family and also with the rest of the world. Shes a true inspiration. I do thank you for the strength you had to help me so I could get better. It is helping alot, I have found out things about myself that I didn’t know. I am happy to see new commercials on bullying. Which I never did before. Its amazing of what you and Amanda have accomplished. Think about your guys all the time. I still kinda wish you guys have told me about what you guys were going through. But its fine, as long as we help others in the near future! I do have my emotional time, only when I stay up really late, thats when I start thinking about my past and what I have been through. But im really glad you guys are in my life, and I wouldn’t change that for anything in the world. And I remember one time that you told me that Amanda had done some research on depression and other things. I have also done that and I had no idea that some of things I have found would cause any of the things, like depression and anxiety.”
I like hearing that differences have been made since Amanda’s death. I am tired and going to rest my brain.
Hugz and cuddles xoxo