Back in October, I received an interesting email from a work associate. He told me about ‘the weather story’. It has been 3.5 months since Amanda has been gone. People still come up to me to say their ‘words of sorry’ and I have to go into how I am doing, etc. It is usually ok. Sometimes it isn’t.
I saw my massage therapist today and I guess I was so relaxed, while we talked, I cried. It is more emotional for me to talk about Amanda when I have shared stories with them about her over the past year or so. But I also have to remember, it is cathartic and I need to be emotional. I have been talking to other moms who have lost a child in their life. I just met a mom who unfortunately lost both her kids years apart. My heart saddens. I can’t imagine.
The weather story goes something like this… When someone has lost a loved one, it never fails that others will come up to them and ask ‘How are you doing?’ This is sometimes a loaded question as you have to imagine how that person is really doing. Usually the person answering will not say ‘Actually, I feel like sh*t’. They will usually say ‘I am doing fine’ and/or just lie so as not to get into it. So Ben’s mom (from not really liking being asked ‘How are you doing?’) began asking others ‘ How is the weather?’. It broke the ice and conversations were easier. So I guess if I was asked ‘How is the weather?’ — I could say it was a sunny day or a rainy/p*ssy day. That would certainly be enough to share my mood.
Wonder what a ‘snowflaky day’ would mean?
Took my Christmas lights down today. Another sad event. I clearly remember how excited I was to put them up for Amanda and her bday. I want to get a Snowball Tree and plant it in the front garden. Has anyone seen such a thing?
Niters everyone! Have a great Monday…