I have no words for tonight except that when I was downstairs in the crawl space re-arranging the boxes from the Christmas decorations, I saw a big bucket that had/have her stuffies in them. I did give stuffies to some of her friends but if you knew Amanda, she was always collecting them. My favs are her build a bears. I have 3 sitting in front of her bedroom door. Will take a pic when I get there. It’s sad to see them without their owner. It’s sad to not have Amanda with me in my house. I guess this is one of my sad nights. I miss her so much. I find that when I have a strong night (as I had a radio interview tonight talking about Amanda and her mental health concerns) I sometimes crash. But I did hear that the interview sounded good. I never really know because it feels to me that I am just babbling.
Tonight I saw Evander Holyfield’s tweet about Amanda’s Legacy Foundation. That gives me goosebumps. How far we have gone Amanda in the past 3 1/2 months. Holy sh*t (oops) .. Holy
There’s the tweet above. Anyways, I am sad so I am going to cry a bit. Maybe eat some chocolate.
Niters and hugz to both my children and my BBB xoxo