Rave for Day 15 – I guessed I missed Day 14. I was actually going to rave and it was going to be about the wonderful friends and community I live in. I have never before seen such an outpouring of kindness and love and respect as I have in the past 2 weeks. I have friends, neighbours, and others still calling me daily to see if I’m okay. There are other friends who haven’t been able to come but will do so next week and in the weeks coming and those who want to visit again. My home is always open to visitors (unless I’m sleeping, which isn’t very often). Meals are still coming to my house daily. Piping hot and really yummy. This is so very appreciated. Love and hugs to those who have helped with the planning of things. It has ultimately taken a load off my shoulders which are sometimes heavy.
I know that many have commented how ‘strong’ I appear to be. I ask myself, is this really me or am I just being a Momma Bear to my children. Certain things set me off. Pictures of Amanda. Songs that we both liked and shared with each other. Clothes that we shared. Strength comes and goes. The tears still come and go. My strength is coming via my family and my friends. If you have emailed, tweeted or texted me and I haven’t responded, it may mean that I have lost the message somewhere in cyberspace. Please send again.
For those of you with lots of Facebook and Twitter friends, please retweet and repost articles, the Vancouver Foundation site for donations, the iTunes + link to Elise Estrada’s song that dedicated to Amanda for me.
FYI – I am still here trying to write my words. Arggg….