Day 30 (November 10) – Went last night to see Air Supply. Did you know that the band started up in 197?. I was just a meer 15 years old. The same age as Amanda. The concert brought me back to when we went to concerts at the PNE Fairgrounds at the Gardens. Does anyone remember that? I remember seeing The Headpins, Trooper and Sweeney Todd. Yikes… that ages all of us who went to high school with me and others too.
But what I want to say is that at 15 back in 1977, we (as youth) were given so much more independence back then without the fear of internet predators and cyberbullying (except for fears of Clifford Olsen). It makes one think about how life and society has changed and what this has done to our youth today. I keep running into young people and older people who tell about their experiences either being bullied or being a bullier. All have had their ‘aha’ moment.
My burning question is this one – ‘For those who have never been bullied, my question is why? What did you (as a person) do differently that made you avoid being the target of someone else’s wrath?’
To find out answers from different people would be a goldmine. The same way as finding out from a bullier, why they bully (kid and/or adult). Why does it give them power? What is it that makes them do it? What makes people talk about others? Does it give them power and control? How does one change the way of thinking?
Over the past 4 weeks, I have done some soul searching about me as a person, as a mom, as a friend. I really don’t think I am as great as you (my friends) think I am. I try my hardest to be the person I can be. But stories in my own life has put dents in me that can never be pulled out. It has taken me years to figure out which ones to box away and which ones to keep. I am kind of tired of boxes. Now I have another thing to pack away and I don’t get to gift wrap it. That makes me sad …
But … here is a happy story to end my rant for this day. My wonderful neighbours have a plan to help fulfill one of the family traditions that we have had with Amanda. On Amanda’s birthday each year (which is Nov 27), the christmas lights are always up and turned on when she arrived home on her bday wherever she was. So today I saw my neighbour up on his roof (and I mean up there) putting his lights on for Amanda. The funny thing is that every other year, he is usually one of the last ones rushing to put the lights up on his house due to a busy work and kid schedule. Now that he has started, the pressure is on for all of us others to follow. I am sending Rob out to buy new lights tomorrow and I see that Walmart in the States has snowflake icicle dangly lights.
So let’s hope for a clear sky weekend in Port Coquitlam so all my neighbours who want to put their lights up are able to do it. Thank you Bryan for starting ….
Time for bed. Not sure about sleep. I had coffee tonight. Wonder what effect if will have …
So to all those friends who are asleep … sweet dreamz …. Hugz … xoxo