I have to apologize to all those people who I don’t re-contact back with. It’s not that I don’t want to talk to you. It’s just that there are so many of you out there. I am slowly trying to sort it out. I have to make notes to remember where people live, what they do in life, how many kids they have and why they connected to me in the first place. For example – what was their story? I try so hard to keep on top of it. I feel so stupid sometimes when I have to ask a question like .. “Where are you from again?” “Where did I meet you?” There was someone last month who asked if I could come to the island to talk to some young people for a ‘Youth Conference” in May. That would be great but now I can’t remember the name of the person who asked and it has filtered down my email chain. I guess I need to figure out a way to easily track these things down. Being a type “A” person, it just drives me crazy. But then again, I can’t do everything.
Someone told me today that snowdrops started blooming in early February and they are almost done. 😦 But good news is that it is a bulb flower and I am going to get some bulbs for next year.
Found out that the hoodies will come in zip style also. So I’m waiting to see how many people will change from regular to zip. I know I will.
Funny thing with the weather. I know it has been snowing like crazy east of Vancouver . But today I woke up to messages that it was snowing in parts of Coquitlam, Burnaby, North Vancouver, etc. There was no snow in PoCo. I had an appt with my therapist this afternoon. No, I am not ashamed to say that. I know that at one point I said I didn’t need to go to anyone and back then, I was okay with the friends around me. But now I am glad that I am seeing and talking to someone. It gets me talking. He asks me pointed questions. Some I can answer. Others I can’t. He gets me to think about what I say and how and why I say things. For example, when I went into her room yesterday. Was there an underlying reason? I never really thought about it that way. Oh well, back to the weather. So after hearing that it was snowing all day, people reminded me that PS (Princess Snowflake) was one again causing some commotion. When I was telling my therapist how angry still I was at Amanda for doing what she did, (and this is the honest truth), it started to snow like crazy in Port Coquitlam. It lasted for about 10 minutes. It was like a ‘wow’ ‘holy sh*t’ moment. Was it Amanda eavesdropping on me talking about her? She did use to lurk and listen. I remember those mornings she would barge into my room. One morning, she came into my room and just sat on my bed and chatted. I think it was a shock to my BBBB as he wasn’t use to Amanda yet or even having a girl-child around. But Amanda just made herself comfortable and talked to us about everything. She was wearing her monkey PJ’s. Yes, those went into the memory quilt bag.
Another day. Lots happening again. Snowdrops. Snowball trees. Plants. Flowers. Gardens. Sunshine. Rain. Snow. And now it is frosty cold outside.
I would like to say ‘thank you’ to everyone who comes here to read what I write. I don’t know everyone who comes to read as everyone doesn’t make a comment. Sharing it is my therapy. I just found an article tonight that said that very thing. Yes, for me it is therapeutic. There are things that I do share and some things that I don’t. Protecting some privacy is still important to me and my family. The fact is .. if it hasn’t been shared by now … it may never be shared. As I gain trust from meeting or talking to real people, then more info is gathered. But there are some things that will never be posted on a blog that is so public. This post was interesting – http://dailyentertainmentnews.com/tv/carol-todd-is-amanda-todds-mother/
I still find it interesting when people comment without verification of truth thinking themselves as the ‘know everything’ gurus. When they posture themselves and voice their opinions as facts in hopes that others will listen and agree …. well … let’s all think about that for a minute.
Time for bed or some aimless reading. Tomorrow is another day. What will the weather be like ???
Sleep tight. Hope for some sun and vitamin D. (Can someone describe what they think a man-cold really is ??)
Hugz to all … xoox (P.S. – thanks Jackie for all that you do)