Oh no … I caught the man-cold. First virus since October. Now I ‘m trying to get rid of id and fast. Vitamins, tylenol, bed …
Still … had another mental breakdown about an hour ago. I think the dog we have that Amanda named ‘Mandy’ did it. Mandy just seems to sit there and look at me with those questioning eyes. She will even come and just sit by me which she never did before October 10th. Am I imagining it? Getting really spooked out.
I am sure my BBBB doesn’t understand it all. If I don’t understand my emotional rollercoaster, then how could someone else.
I have spend the last hour crying. As I said last night, it drives me insane as to why. The tears has now wiped me out completely.
Oh .. I went to the park/pond today to see where the bench would go. It’s almost the exact location where Amanda started her bike trek into the pond. I have to figure out the words to the engraving on her bench. Another hard moment for me.
AMANDA: I WANTED YOU HERE TO SHARE YOUR LIFE WITH ME. YOU NEEDED TO BE HERE TO WATCH ME GET OLDER!!
I’m done. It’s night time…. xoxo
To Shawn, We loved the chicken dumplings. They were great. It’s the comfort food thing.