I am combining two blog posts together. One old and one new. I feel they should be together for the reason that …..
Yesterday being April 10th was an extraordinary day. One that I never would have expected to happen. I woke up in the morning and cancelled my two appointments for the day. I felt that I needed to be alone to reflect on the past 6 months. Boy was I wrong about that. The phone started ringing. My Twitter started twitterpating. My email was going crazy. The media was alive with the sound of …. hmmm…. Amanda’s voice. OMGoodness!!! By 10 a.m., I had both CTV x2 + Global News at my doorstep with their cameras and reporters for interviews. Maybe I failed time-telling. Lucky for me, the reporters knew each other and worked out a plan to tape and ask questions in tandem. I am so getting used to B-Roll and it is so boring to pretend to do something and NOT TALK!!
Besides CTV and Global, I talked to another CBC radio show in Toronto, CKNW – Simi Sara, CBC National News in Toronto for Radio and then had Global BC1 in the evening at the studio. Now doing Live TV is kind of scary. You can’t mess up and if you cry, it’s for real and everyone can see. When I was at the Global station, I almost lost it when I started to watch Amanda’s You Tube video. I have to tell you … I still cannot watch it. Too many memories. Makes me cry. Makes me miss her.
Some of the questions asked today were: Are you noticing a change in bullying? How do you continue to do what you are doing as a grieving mother? Why do you do what you are doing? How do you feel at this 6 month period? What were your reactions to the story about Rehteah Parsons in Nova Scotia? Why did you reach out to the mom? and more….
I am ever the pessimist and had to ask my friends if my words were really worthwhile. I only hope that people listen to what I say. I am not preaching. I am just sharing. I do read and listen to other peoples stories. It’s all to help ‘Make the Difference’ and I know that those that surround me are 100% in support of helping me. I love all the wonderful comments and support. That is what keeps me going. I so miss Amanda. I want ever to give her a hug and a poke. To push her off the couch. To flick macaroni at each other. To eat neopolitan ice cream and have her scoop all the vanilla out while I ate the chocolate. To steal my favourite nail polish and for me never to see it again. To ‘borrow’ my socks so that I had to go to Costco and rebuy new ones every other month. To leave all the purple popsicles in the freezer and eat all the other colours. But Amanda, purple was your favourite colour!!!
I love you Princess Snowflake. Lots of people had their candles burning today and tonight all over the world.