It’s been a long 2 weeks. Sleep has come and gone. Apparently when the brain, body and soul need healing, it gets tired and forces sleep. I guess that is what has been happening with me. Crashing at 9 pm and then waking up 11 hours later. I have had super weepy moments. Spontaneous I would say. It drives me absolutely crazy that it happens without warning. I think of Amanda. I hear a song. I see a colour that she liked. I want to hear her voice and her laughter and her cheekiness. I haven’t made popcorn in my house since October. It drives me so insane that life continues onward and I am left with this void.
Spring shopping has come and gone. I am definitely not in that mode or mood. I am waiting for the ‘it’s going to get easier stage’. Is it? Will it? Tell me when.
I’ve been watching and reading the tweets from @GlenfordCanning and wonder how he is doing. Also how Leah and Jason are doing also. It is not easy to be out there in the public eye fighting the cause. Hopefully all the people who care and want to see a change can join together and make that LOUD VOICE that I talked about last week. There were two articles that came out today:
Please take the time to read them. They both state that changes need to be made and that the Justice Minister in Nova Scotia has promised to Rehteah’s mom that he will bring recommendations to Ottawa. It would be about time that this discussion occurs.
Youth mental health needs to be big on the political agenda too. Too many kids are in need of supports and we need to get the help before it is too late. Sometimes it is felt by myself and other parents that it is a revolving hamster wheel. But despite that, we need to keep working on it. We need to get everyone involved. Even if they don’t have kids or a loved one suffering from mental health concerns. You never know when it may rear it’s ugly head. Just like cancer, diabetes, glaucoma, etc.
Remember it’s about the # of voices and how loud it needs to get to be heard.
There is a fundraiser in Port Coquitlam on Sunday, June 9th – go to Bikes Against Bullies Facebook page. There is also a Twitter that is listed on the site.
Amanda story – The day Amanda used nail polish and acrylic paint to do an art project. In the kitchen. On the oak table. Hmm… it was purple, blue and green. Acrylic paint and nail polish doesn’t really come off. I know (says Amanda). If nail polish remover works on getting nail polish off fingernails, then it must work on everything else. “Groan” … (says mom who wasn’t around the kitchen at the time). So out came the nail polish remover. Off came the laquer on the kitchen table. “Umm…. mom … the table isn’t shiny anymore”. “Why honey, what did you do?” “I’m going outside to play mom. You know, get the fresh air and sunshine you always tell me to get. Bye. Love you.” Poof… gone. It was only a table. Wasn’t any worse than the rabbits chewing the railing or the puppies chewing the chair legs. ** OH .. and Amanda used the green, purple and blue paint on the front steps on the concrete steps. The colour are still there and will stay forever. 🙂
I’ve got to go now before I get way to emotional for 11 pm on a Saturday night. Love you princess snowflake. I heard it was snowing today somewhere in Eastern Canada. I think they are wanting some spring now.
(Love the tributes people make in your memory Amanda!!)