Not a day goes by where I don’t think of you can cry. It makes it hard sometimes to carry on with what I am doing. It really doesn’t matter what I might be doing, the T & Ms just invade my thoughts. I have found that the 9th, 10th and 11th of each month are definitely and of course the most painful. Will the heartache ever lessen. I don’t know. Sometimes I think it just grows. I see other teenage girls out there doing things that are a normal part of growing up. And then I think those were things you enjoyed or looked forward to. Unfortunately, that will no longer happen. And that makes me sad. Your friends go to visit the bench. They sit. The ducks walk around your bench. It is peaceful at the park which is one of the reasons you always went there. To watch the sun. And the people. From where you usually sat on the hill, you can see your bench. The wind is blowing the balloons around.
In the past few days, I have received many messages from kids that have been affected by your video and your story. They have learned from your story. They continue to want to help in some way. I have also received messages from kids that are reaching out. It is amazing to see everyone doing that and helping each other.
Had a therapy session today. Eyes hurt. Heart hurts. Wish you were here!!
Tomorrow is another day. Watch down upon us and give us signs that you are watching us.
Love Mom xoxo