July 21 – the sun doesn’t shine where????

It’s funny when you go to homes of friends how many put photographs on their fridges with all those bright and shiny magnets.  I have pictures on my fridge too.  Actually, many of them.  Maybe that’s why I like having a black fridge.  The pictures seem to show up more for me.  I know the white snowflakes I have on it really show up.

I have had the same pictures on my fridge for a few years.  I just sometimes add different ones.  Tonight (just now) I was looking through them again.  This one I have looked at a zillion times.  It affected me differently tonight.  It was the awful feeling that my two kids will never share what they did in this picture again…ever!!   That makes me sad.  Life (and death) changes us.  Our thoughts.  Our views.  Our hopes.

I was at a wedding yesterday.  It was an absolutely beautiful ceremony and reception.  The bride and groom were married on what would have been the 45th wedding anniversary of his parents.  Unfortunately, his father took ill last year and passed away.  But they will always have the date to remember and the memories.

As for me, I will never see my daughter get married.  Amanda always talked about what her wedding dress would look like.  Especially when we drove past the wedding stores in New Westminster.  And she wanted two kids.  A boy and a girl.   She even had the names picked out.  Unfortunately, the systems failed when she needed lots of help to get better.

And for those that blame Amanda for her own death due to some poor choices … the sun doesn’t shine where???

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About Carol Todd

Being the mother of Amanda Todd has lead me on this journey shortly after Amanda's death on October 10, 2012. Amanda's prolific You Tube video has been viewed over 33 million times. Through this video, there has been an increased awareness about cyberbullying, social media safety and mental health. www.amandatoddlegacy.org
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6 Responses to July 21 – the sun doesn’t shine where????

  1. Savetheworld says:

    Thank you for sharing these previous pictures xo

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  2. Lord Lucan says:

    To blame Amanda for her many faults is akin to blaming her bullies for there’s. It achieves nothing.

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  3. Will Burke says:

    Out of all of the posts I have read all written by Carol Todd herself.This one really hits home.The things inlife that Amanda will never be able to achieve have all been taken from her due to all the problems she had to deal with.It truly makes me sad reading this Blog posting.

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  4. H.I.D. says:

    Well said Tristan.
    She was only 15. Didn’t get the chance……..

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  5. Tristan says:

    what a lovely picture, another one to be cherished. The snowflake looks amazing on the black. Really sad reading the part about Amanda and picking out her wedding dress. It was these kinds of things i was talking about to others just the next day after Amanda’s story hit the news,, everybody was talking about it, and id bring up the point that she was only 15 , and didn’t get the chance to experience life yet. Wont get the chance to get her own drivers license, graduating, getting married, becoming a mom,, and the list goes on… Its so unfair , she had all this taken from her ,, she really was robbed of her future because of the cruelty of others.

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