September 7 – A year since the You Tube video ….

It’s hard to believe that it has been a year since Amanda initially posted her video to You Tube. It took much strength and courage for her to decide to share it with the world. In reflecting upon the year, I wish that Amanda had been healthy enough after she posted the video for her and I to have a sit down talk about it. If this had been able to happen, both of us would probably have learned things that would have altered our thoughts and probably our behaviours.

The day after Amanda posted her video, she must have felt some form of new inner freedom. After spending two months in the house with agoraphobia, only going out for her medical appointments, Amanda woke up the day after posting and told me she wanted to get her nails done, her hair trimmed and she wanted to go to the store for snacks and pop for her friends to come over. Everyone out there won’t realize or understand what a big achievement that was.

Unfortunately something occurred that evening to set her into another spiral. I have been able to speak my thoughts to the persons involved. I can never change occurrences or moments but I sure wish I could have.

The next month for me will be one of extreme sadness. September 10th (there’s the number 10 again) is World Suicide Prevention Month. It is a day where we all need to take notice of what goes on in your communities about suicide preventions and the mental health that surrounds it.

The following month on October 10th (which is also the day Amanda passed away) is World Health Organization – World Mental Health Day. That is when we want to Light Up the World in Purple for Amanda Todd. It’s not about remembering Amanda. It’s about not forgetting about the mental health illnesses that eventually caused her to take her life along with many other of our children we have lost.


Someone who I met in the past year on Facebook wrote this tonight.  Thank you Will …

Today marks the 1 year anniversary since Amanda Michelle Todd uploaded her video onto You Tube wanting the world to know the torment and cyberbullying she dealt with for the last 4 years of her young life that was taken away from her way to soon. Amanda was also sexually exploited over the internet.  So I am asking for everyone to please watch Amanda’s video and please learn from the points Amanda is showing the world to be safe from. The internet can be a goodthing as well as being ur worst enemy.  So be safe that is what Amanda has shown the world.

As sad as it sounds if Amanda hadn’t shown the world just how evil of a place we live in no-one would have come together like Amanda Todd Official and Amanda Todds Safe Haven.  A big thank you goes out to Renee  for turning this group arround from being trolled beyond believe.  And the other big thank you goes out to Crystal  for getting Amanda Todds Safe Haven up and running. Together we have started to make a difference in the world.Amanda has touched the hearts of many and opened the eyes to 1000’s if not millions.

This is for Carol Todd & Norm Todd Amanda’s Mom & Dad

“My story: Struggling, bullying, suicide, self harm I’m struggling to stay in this world, because everything just touches me so deeply. I’m not doing this for attention. I’m doing this to be an inspiration and…”

Love always to my Princess Snowflake xoxo

About Carol Todd

Being the mother of Amanda Todd has lead me on this journey shortly after Amanda's death on October 10, 2012. Amanda's prolific You Tube video has been viewed over 33 million times. Through this video, there has been an increased awareness about cyberbullying, social media safety and mental health.
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8 Responses to September 7 – A year since the You Tube video ….

  1. Hamsi says:

    It is true a year has passed but time cannot diminish the tragedy of what happened to this young girl who asked only of life that she live like everyone else. My heart goes out to the Todds and to everyone else who has felt moved by this tragedy over these many months. I hope one day we will see justice done.


  2. Andria says:

    Eu não si o que fazer ,no dia 10\10\2013 deveria ser um dia feliz para mim ,porque é o dia em que eu nasci …mas não é mais para mim é um dia triste ..muito triste !! Me desculpe Carol


    • la Punisher says:

      Translation for Andria:
      I do not like to do on 10 \ 10 \ 2013 should be a happy day for me because it is the day I was born … but there is more to me is a sad day .. very sad! Sorry Carol


  3. H.I.D. says:

    To la Punisher:
    “If the heart is healing from such a sadness, Than it needs to be Broken Again……….”
    You are right…….I Will Watch Amanda’s Video Again.
    Almost All of this past year was incerdibly sad, July was the absolute worst for me.

    In August, Carol (and her chauffer) came to visit my home town, we spent over an
    hour together, and then she came over to my house. You are an Amazing Person
    Carol !!

    Carol, Amanda and yourself are thought of Every Single Day.
    Always, Forever and Forever
    is that You Are Loved Amanda.


  4. la Punisher says:

    Now that you pointed it out the year sure did go by fast with almost all of it filled with sadness.
    My heart is full of compassion for you and your family.

    Big Strong Hugz 2U today


  5. H.I.D. says:

    Just the other day I went out and bought a PURPLE t-shirt for Oct 10.
    I am also looking for some PURPLE “rope lighting”
    I will look online for this.

    You Are Forever LOVED Amanda.
    Forever And Forever.
    Beautiful Precious Innocent Child.
    Princess Snowflake.


  6. H.I.D. says:

    Such Heart Breaking songs Amanda chose for her video.
    It was Amanda’s video that introduced me to Sia. (Breathe Me KCRW 2007).
    How could a 15 yr old even know of such a sad, sad song.
    I had neven even heard of Sia before.
    It’s gonna break my heart again if I watch her video.
    Amanda is Forever LOVED.
    Forever and forever.
    Beautiful Princess Snowflake.


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