Surprised … honoured … thankful… blessed!!!
Yes, I think Amanda would be proud of her mom. When I look at the other 99 recognized recipients and their achievements, I think to myself “Wow”! In my minds eye, I am just doing my job as a mom.
Over the past few weeks, I have spoken to many parents who have lost their child way too soon. Some were to suicide, some to death by the hands of others. These kids are now the voice of the silent. Who can talk for them? All of us.
I am at a loss for words at this time of year. Kids are getting ready to go back to school. The excitement of it all. Amanda would have graduated last June and would have hopefully gone on to college to start working on a career. She wanted hair design and/or she wanted to do something with cooking. All that is now a dream as sad as it is. I do think that at times, I block out her death so I don’t have to think about it. Then reality hits when I see her photo and realize that the in real life, she is gone.
I stand both ‘proud and sad’ in keeping Amanda’s dream alive with the all the support and love of others. Without them, we could follow the ‘DREAM OF HELPING KIDS’.