Tonight I went to pick up a gift card donation from one of the local Safeway’s. Not the one we usually went to but the other one. You would remember it well as there was once a Christmas Toy/Food Drive and we went there because you wanted to donate something to those families who were less fortunate and didn’t have a whole lot, especially at this time of year. Do you remember that night … it was cold. No snow but some light rain. Safeway (Sunwood Square) had called me earlier today and said that a gift card was ready to be picked up.
At the Customer Service area, I told the lady at the counter that I was there to pick up a donation for Amanda’s Legacy. It’s still strange for me to think of you in the past because I always want to think of you in the present. When the lady at the counter asked who I was, I told her I was your mom. She handed me the donation in a purple envelope. It took me by surprise that Safeway knew to put it in an envelope the colour that personifies you. And plus, it is also the colour that has been created to bring more awareness to World Mental Health Day (October 10th) which you would never have known would be so significant on the day you decided to end your life.
The lady at the counter started asking how I was doing and I knew that she had followed the story. We chatted for about 5 minutes. She acknowledged how the world has changed with the different conversations we are all having about mental health, wellness, social media, online safety and cyberabuse. We talked about how your legacy (yes you my wonderful daughter) has helped to make these changes all over. The lady at the counter thanked me again but I think I might have said out loud – “it isn’t about me, it’s about Amanda and her voice is finally making the world sit up and listen.” Your voice then was quieter and your voice now is very much louder. After I thanked her again for the donation and the purple envelope, I felt as if you were there with me. And Amanda, you also are with so many others that we can’t even begin to count.
Thank you my sweet Amanda for being you!!
Love Mom xox