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  1. Kate says:

    What I tried to say didn’t come out as well as I had hoped. I’m 14 years old. I write but yet this story has left me speechless, the way you read an unexpected ending of a book. But this book has so many lost chapters and I wish I could piece them all back together. Amanda was just amazing and I’m sure you have been told. She should have never gone through all of it. Her mistakes should have been lost in a gust of wind instead of being a constant pressure on her shoulders because of some wicked shadow. She was beautiful, unique and important. More than a population number. Especially to those who have been saddened by her story. But this story should have been told by her, she should be here. And I wish I could tell her that everything is okay. I just wish I could have done something. But sparrows take flight and always find their way back home. Safe flight, little sparrow.

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  2. Kate says:

    I wasn’t aware of Amanda’s story until recently and it has really affected me. I have no idea what I feel. It really upset me and I have been through something similar but not to that extreme. I guess I came on here, searching for a way to contact as a type of closer, just to think that maybe this would make things better for you even though I know it won’t. I think Amanda was amazing, truly brave and everyone makes many mistakes in their lives that we are supposed to leave from so why did someone keep making her pay for something silly? I’m not really sure how to describe what I feel, all I can say is that I cried when I read about it and I feel it is my purpose to write this for respect. I am truly sorry and I know this is probably nothing to anyone but I’m proud of Amanda for staying strong as long as she could and I just wish she was here now to be an amazing, beautiful girl who is my idol.

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  3. megan... again says:

    Its almost 11 years since i was raped for 7 day. In the next few months the monster convicted and sent to prison from my testimony gets another chance at freedom.currently hes in a pych ward for inmates under lockdown not far from me. Last evaluation he denied raping me and 3 others dispite dna evidence. This is best case scenario. At best ill have to once a year fear his release until he or i is dead. If released i dont kbow if i could stand it. Im beginning to realize until him or i is finally dead this will never b over… not for me maybe ever. Me telling my story and warn my area about him in a utube video wont make this end. I cannot put my family at risk, him hurting me is one thing. They dont deserve it. Im willing to sacrifice myself not my family. Maybe some things in life is horrible enough theres no getting better. Time to admit defeat.itll never stop for me. Ive lost everything and i want it to finally be over.

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  4. Kayla S says:

    Hello, Carol. My name is Kayla and I am 16 years old and live in Pennsylvania. I am deeply saddened about what happened to your daughter especially since the same thing has happened to me by the same man who harassed your daughter. It started when I was 12 years old and was on the video chat website Blog.tv. My old best friend and I would host shows on the website and post links to various sites of ours such as Skype. One day I was contacted by a man on skype, I didn’t know who he was but I do now. He would be very sweet to me and always want to talk. He soon began asking me to expose certain parts of my body and being only 12 years old at the time, I was very naive and did so. I did not know he would take screen shots of me and threaten me with them and post them on the Internet. He created a fake Facebook profile of me with all of my information and added all of my family and friends, posting pictures of my bare breasts and linking them videos of me he had put on pornographic websites. We contacted the police but very little happened. The harassment continued on and off up until I was 14, almost 15 years old. He would threaten me to do sexual performances for him on camera or he would ruin my life. Last year I was contacted by the police department and met with a federal woman who works for the PA government and she informed me that they have captured the man who did this to me. I have heard of your daughters story years earlier and had no idea the man who did this to your daughter was the same man harassing me. I wish I would have known and helped your daughter. I am so sorry. I have not heard any details since August 2014 about the man. I hope you can see this comment, I didn’t know any other way I could contact you. You are a very strong woman and your daughter was absolutely beautiful.

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  5. Hélcio Silva says:

    Hey carol, i don’ know where to begin, it’s about two years since Amanda left this world, i’m from Brazil, and i believe not everyone knows what happened to Amanda… i took a long time to decide to sent you a message, but then i realized, i’ts never late to say something to help or to say someting kind to someone… like we all know now
    Amanda, she’s was beautiful, she’s heart was so beautiful, and i’ts extremely painfull to me to watch her sing, or smile, and know that you, or us, will never see those smiles again, hear her beautiful voice, i dint’ know her, wish i had, cause i’m sure that she needed a friend, and now, i pray everyday, even knowing that she doesn’t know who i was at that time, that she visit me at my dreams, so i can talk to her on a nice field full of flowers, or a park seeting on a bench, so i could tell her, how she was amazing, and how we MISS her (in my case even without never had the pleasure to meet her) i hope, no… i KNOW that she’s in peace now, on a beautiful place, made specially for her, where she can laught, she can sing, and the most important, she can be HAPPY, i’m sad that you never (at least in this life, cause i’m sure you will see her again) will be able to hugh her and say how much you love her… and i promisse, if she’s visit me, i will be so kind to her and tell her that she will always be remembered, sometimes, most people doesn’t believe that is possible to be happy after we lost a son or a daughter, but i hope now you are in peace too… i’m Sure Amanda is looking for us.
    Wish i could hugh you too, since that’s not possible let met say, Mam, you had an Amazing daughter, a beautiful and a kind daughter, that someday you will see her again, and see how happy she will be..
    Att. Hélcio Silva from Brazil, be sace and God bless you

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  6. Janet says:

    When I was 11, my oldest sister took her life. By 13 I was in the psych system, heavily medicated and labeled/diagnosed with Bipolar and other things. I lived through a couple of serious suicide attempts to which I woke up from wondering why I was still alive. I underwent shock treatment in 2008 as none of the meds had been working and in fact, had never worked. My life was a mess.
    In 2009 while in an outpatient facility in Surrey, I woke up one morning unable to walk. I was taken to emergency and after several hours of ruling things out, an MRI was done to which it was discovered I had a spinal cord disease and was going to need back surgery. A psychiatrist I had never met, the head of psychiatry @ the hospital, came to me saying “I haven’t looked at your past charts but I’m wondering why you are on all this medication” and I told him I was Bipolar. He looked at me and said “You’re not Bipolar. You have PTSD, Depression and Anxiety for sure but you are not bipolar” (in a nutshell) and then said he would like to wean me off all of the medication I was taking. Within 3 months I was medication free and have been off ever since.

    I’ve had 2 more back surgeries since then and am seeing a great therapist… life is definitely not smooth but it sure is better than living a revolving-door life of being in the psych ward and drugged up.

    There is so much more to the story with the years (literally) I spent being a psych patient.

    But I think if I could share with anyone the most important thing to do is not give up. Keep going. Ask for help. Talk to someone.

    And above all, remember you have a reason to be here. Even if you don’t yet know it, you do.

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  7. Jessie (a concerned mother) says:

    this is hard for me to talk about and always makes me cry so I am sorry if some of this is all over the place.

    my daughter has been harder to handle from age 3 but no doctor wanted to see her and said she was ok till her life got turned up side down

    She was 6 years old when my abuser ( we dated for 15 years off and on NOT MY KIDS FATHERS ) came back into my life and it was bad. It was fighting yelling and well he wasn’t good to my kids ( i was in school and working full time) so I didn’t see any signs that he was treating them bad, we ended up getting married 😦 and he started hitting me in front of my kids. with in 6 months of us being married the police can to our home 10 times for fighting and he was always removed from the home and then I let him back in.
    It was xmas 09 when everything for my daughter went down hill.
    she was moved to a new school in 2009 (gd1) because we lost our home and had to move into his step dads 2 bedroom home with 6 ppl it wasn’t good, she was in lots of trouble at school ( she didnt want to leave her friends that she grew up with) my ex got us kicked out of his step dads because of drugs and fighting with him so we moved again and again had to change schools this was all in 6 months ( the school and I got help in for her and she was diagnosed with ADD, ADHA and adjustment disorder and put on meds) The meds and the counseling helped a bit but the fighting was still going on at home

    grade 2 she had to start at another school for special needs children but it was 4 hours on the bus everyday , it was for a month of school she was in this school, so I had to fight to get my daughter back into the one school and it worked ( thank god for that) but the behaviors still where there, she was very depressed with life i had no clue what was really wrong b/c I was to blind to see that our fighting was doing this we had to hide in a shelter for a few days till he was ok to come back. the day she told her teacher this (i just want to kill my self b/c its me that its bad and its b/c of me that my mom and dad fight and if I was gone then it will be ok) I was lost for words the school called child services on us because of what she said and well need ess to say off to the hospital we went and she told the doctor stuff and we got sent home ( all with in 4 hours) The next day workers came to my home and told my ex he had to leave the home or my kids are gone, so he left in the middle of Sept. I was working at a liquor store and met someone ( I rushed into a relationship)

    **LIFE CHANGING EVENT**
    OCT 2010 my ex broke into our place we shared together and kicked in my bedroom door at 9:30 pm ( I was in bed with the new bf and he took off for me to deal with my crazy ex alone) with a knife waving it trying to stab the guy i was with and I stood up to see if I could talk to him but it didnt work well he ended up cutting me and shaking me and trashing everything in our home, i yelled to my son to call 911 and he ran out side scared and not to sure what was going on, my daughter was in the house with me in the hall way when he was coming at me yelling at me *its all because of you*you did this, she was in front of me I pushed her in the bathroom to save her ( I thought he was going to kill me) he took off out the door cops everywhere all over chopper out looking for him as well and he was found. I had to go into hiding for 3 weeks kids pulled out of school no contact with no one in case he found us. I had to move me and my 2 kids to BC by bus. Since we moved here she has been taken off of her pills but the ADHD and ADD still are there but she is learning how to deal with it with out them as she doesnt want to take them.

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  8. Jessie (a concerned mother) says:

    I am a mother to a 12 year old girl. most of her childhood wasn’t easy with in home issues and with dealing with mental issues she put a rope around her neck at the age of 9 and said she wanted to hang herself because she couldn’t deal with life. ( That killed me inside as a mother)

    When we moved out here to Surrey BC she was picked on lots and bullied by many b/c of her skin color she is(half native and Italian) and b/c we don’t have lots of money. ( very brown community), we live in a basement unit and so that means we are poor is what they said. She was in class (gd6) and the boys in the class would call her names and call her down (fat 70lbs ,ugly,poor kid,loser.) (in Punjabi& English)(I have seen the kids picking on a special needs boy and hell yeah I said something to them about that.) even some of the girls in gd7 started in on her. she went to the teacher and she did nothing, I didn’t know what was all going on besides she didn’t like the school (she was scared on what I would do to the boys b/c i am not a mom you want to mess with). Finally at the end of the year I went to the school and had it out with the kids, one of the boys moms came up and asked what was going on so I told her and well lets just say he is no longer in this school. The other boys didn’t want me to go to their moms at all b/c its not ok in their homes and its not ok outside the homes. This year its been not to bad as the kids are not all together in class with my daughter but once high school starts i am scared all over again will this happen again.

    I didn’t know what was all going on but it was on face book, I didn’t know b/c it was under a different name, this continued all year and she didn’t want to go back but once I saw it the page and everyone involved had to talk with the police at school.

    I also suffered by the hands of others for many many years and I wanted to kill my self and I did try more then once, my mom did everything she could to help me, Its never easy to talk to someone that doesn’t know what you are going throw and sometimes death is the only way out.

    Its sad and I am sorry that you or anyone has to deal with this, no one needs to be alone. STAY STRONG if you see it STOP IT please

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  9. Joye Atkinson says:

    I saw the story of Amanda Todd on Dr. Phil and it’s so sad that anyone feels so bad about themselves that they want to end their life. A while back I wrote a poem after reading a similar story about bullying. My prayer is that these words will encourage somebody to get help and realize each person is uniquely created. It is:
    FROM A BULLIED TEEN
    I’m sending you these final thoughts since I’m no longer there
    It was hard for me to find someone who really cared
    I had dreams like everyone I hoped to fulfill
    Not be forced to do something that was against my will
    As I began to grow things began to change
    People started saying I was acting really strange
    Then it got to be that every single day someone would attack me with the words they’d say
    I listened to that junk so long it finally sank in
    All I heard were voices telling me I”d never win
    People thought it was funny, I became joke of the day
    So finally I just thought it best if I went away
    You don’t know how hard it was for me to take my life
    I now regret my family is living with the strife
    I tried my best to come up with a better plan
    But unless you have walked in my shoes you don’t understand
    Don’t make the same mistake I did by forcing to give in
    You never know what waits for you just around the bend
    @ Joye Atkinson 2014

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  10. megan says:

    La punisher… thank you so much. With your help I’ve found way to make a difference. To help prevent more victims. With that maybe I can actually find healing in this I hope… I really mean it thank u.

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    • la Punisher says:

      megan: U R Welcome friend… You will heal but it takes time, The universe looks after it’s children but you have to really want to heal and do things that make it happen like what your doing that makes you stronger
      In a conversation with 13thmask he told me you are doing just fine and working in the right direction. With that I say… Good Luck in your journey and remember ‘we stand with you’

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  11. megan says:

    Thank u both so much…it meant the world to me.

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  12. Carol Todd says:

    Hi Megan — I was so glad to read what you wrote in your message. I hope that this can give you more time to heal and be with your family. La Punisher and myself will always be here if you need someone to talk to.

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  13. megan says:

    The D.A.’s office called. The judge decided there will not b another hearing in September. The animal will stay incarcerated for another yr then another hearing and review. So for now… myself and my family do not have to worry bout him…we’ll still worry about those who never faced charges in the crime but… thank god not him. La punisher…. thank you for showing positive support. It really meant a lot to me while I was going through this hell.

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    • la Punisher says:

      To Megan… That is no problem, I wish you the best that life has to offer, Climb back from the hell and be strong, You have the power to overcome anything that life throws at you and I will always be available if you need to talk, you can reach me here, Just put la_punisher in the subject line and it will come to me.. Here is a address… anonmask@fastmail.fm

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  14. megan says:

    Megan…again. I was hoping for advice. Judge rescheduled hearing for the person that raped me. Won’t get answer till September now. He was not the only one involved in the crime committed against me. Charges were never brought upon others. They r free. In 5yrs I’ve had to move 3 times out of fear. My parents approached me. They want me to change my name move one final time… I don’t want to even though I’d finally feel safe. The animal when he hadme had plans to murder me… but has also made threats against my parents lives. My fear is if I change my name and he gets out and he cannot find me he will go to him to hurt me the most. My parents becuz they r stubborn or out of pride are unwilling to change their names. Bcuz of this man I’m afraid to ever have children… date sum1 with children for their safety. To try to deal with my ptsd till September I drink heavily… I just don’t no Wut to do any more.

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    • la Punisher says:

      Greetings to megan…One little shot of advice, You can get a restraining order against this creep ( for both you and your family ) to stay a long distance away from all of you, If he comes within that distance it’s 911 on the cell and he’s gone
      In the meantime don’t be so hard on yourself, It’s not your fault that crap happened, Learn to Love yourself again and watch how things change for the better, Be Strong, Show the world just how beautiful you are…

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  15. megan says:

    Sent

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  16. la Punisher says:

    sweetie I know everything… But you can send me your idea if you want.. say the word and \I will give you a email address to send to

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  17. megan says:

    Carol I don’t think u r getting my emails. Yes I was the one who sent u a pic of my tattoo. I made a mass pic message sum how it got really really messed up. La publisher…. that email addy I made for here. Bcuz of my history there’s a whole lot worse shot on the internet about me and the crime against me. So I never thought it was dumb cuz there’s a lot worse out there unfortunately,.still not the smartest thing I’ve ever done probably. La punished do u no who is now cyber harassing carol Todd? I have a idea its not illegal and I think it would help her

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  18. megan says:

    Carol this is Megan aka lilvixen77@Gmail.com. I heard u r now being cyber stalked. I was hoping ud email me the info on whoever is stalking u. I’m more than willing to give then all the ammo they need to try and harass me. That way their focus on u is lessened. I’m not a hacker and I wouldn’t say or do be thing illegal. Ur family has been through enough. Please let me do this for u I no I can distract them from u so please email me their info n let me help. PS. Last week I got the stay strong tattoo.

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    • la Punisher says:

      To Megan… Really Megan, Are you serious?.. Putting your email address out where where anyone can contact you, How dumb is that???

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  19. megan says:

    Carol its Megan I appreciate u taking the time to respond. I tried responding twice through my email but I think I’m doing sum thing wrong. Is there a safe way to give u my number maybe…..

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    • megan says:

      If the u.s. government does let this monster free I’ve been thinking of posting a video. Telling what he exactly did and what he has forced me to live with for the rest of my life. I hope all his other victims join me becuz he has many more. Most was too afraid to press charges. If he gets out I will make the video and allow it to go viral and tell every shameful and humiliating thing he did to me and what he forced me to do. I’m hoping by sharing my shame it will prevent him from getting more victims. Its the only thing I can do now thanks to the justice system.

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      • la Punisher says:

        To Megan… That a girl… Expose that S.O.B, Use his Full Name and address as much as possible… And I know it may be hard to do to get over the shame, But one thing for sure is ‘Don’t Blame Yourself’ It was not your fault… I wish you the best.

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      • megan says:

        Offender id: 9854, 1st name: glen, last name:Thomas, dob:april14 1966, risk level:3. On http://www.criminaljustice.gov…. they refer to a 15 yr old victim f victim and that’s me.
        can’t b present on the hearing on the 18 because the judge must remain unbiased. Lapunisher I’ve email u everything but unfortunaly no response
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      • la Punisher says:

        To Megan… Greetings my sister… Megan I want to put you in touch with the 13thmask of anonymous who is a very close friend of mine and he will help you to find ways of destroying this s.o.b’s reputation worldwide, But I won’t do it without your consent first, Carol Todd knows who the 13thmask is and can vouch for him.. Just say the word

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      • megan says:

        May god forgive me for what I’ve done. What may happen. I don’t deserve forgiveness but I pray that my suffering paid my debt. If not I belong wit the damned. Please god forgive me…..

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  20. brandon says:

    Us

    Life is a great thing yes it is hard at times, you get bullied fiscal and mental and it is hard to not kill your self I know I have had a really hard life I to wanted to kill my self but I realized what about my family and my true friends they care about me yes the bullies wauled not care but who cares what they think. We don’t know each other fiscally but mentally we do we have to stand together. We all are linked because we been bullied so we know how we all feel like but we are strong no mater what the people say and if we stand together we can stop bullies from hurting other kids and save kids lives that have been thinking of hurting there selves and listen to your heart and listen for god you might have made a mistake but god will always be with you in your heart even if you don’t what him to I have made mistakes to I had a hard time forgiving my self but when I herd god through my favorite thing to listen to music and when you forgive yourself the same thing will happen to you but you will hear god through your favorite thing to do or listen to I felt like I know Amanda tided because I know what she felt but it is your chose to help me just think about it. Remember We are strong alone but together we are stronger. God is always with you even in the darkest time and when you are doing something wrong he is the one tilling you to stop. I’m am supposed to be dead but I live that is the reason I think god is real, I think god saved me for a reason, so I think the reason was to help people like us to stand together and you have a reason for being here to you just have to look deep in your heart. And for all of the bullies and the people who have picked on me Brandon Kennedy, and Ian if you see this Till megan I miss him and for you thanks for missing up my life.

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