A kind of a bittersweet day! I love my son and cherish all the moments with him. He is special. But it doesn’t make me miss Amanda any less. She was the one who always had the special touches to a birthday. Making sure that there was a cake. Picking flowers out of our garden or the neighbours garden for the vases in the house because she knew I liked flowers. Amanda never forgot the birthdays because she loved to decorate and looked forward to going out for the dinner. A family tradition was that the birthday person always got to choose where they wanted to go out for dinner. I never really was a chooser, I let her do it. How I miss those moments.
Today was the day that the German documentary came out. Click here to see it. I actually watched this one and thought it was well done.
I didn’t understand a single word they said but the interviews were in English. I am so glad that Kate McHugh was able to to be interviewed from Florida. I met Katie last year in Vegas at a conference. She had been bullied too. She is now in her twenties and it is sad to hear what she went through. Read her book – Ugly ~ The Story of a Bullied Girl. It is even sadder to know that those things still happen.
Katie and I have stayed in touch since meeting last summer and I love hearing about her new experiences in life and her public speaking engagements. This journey I am experiencing has led me to many interesting and wonderful people. I hope to be able to document all these people in a journal one day.
Something came out in Japan yesterday related to Amanda’s story and we definitely needed a translator for that one. I guess these are my birthday presents. Gifts that let me know that Amanda’s message is still travelling to all points of the world.
I was talking with a fellow colleague today that lives in my neighbourhood. He hadn’t quite connected Amanda’s bench at the park with me. Today he did when I told him where I lived. I think he was at a loss for words as many people end up being. I broke that awkward moment by telling him about Amanda rolling along with her bike into the pond because she couldn’t stop. Good thing that it wasn’t today and now. That pond is definitely a lot more murkier and muckier with duck poop.
Also make sure to listen to this song – Let It Go by Alex Boye (Africanized Tribal Cover) from the movie Frozen. It’s funny. The movie was probably years in the making from Disney. It turns out to be about snowflakes cloaked in purple. It’s about being strong and being true to yourself. And it was released at the theatres on Amanda’s birthday last year – November 27th. All coincidences but one can only think – that is so weird!!
What will I do today? Probably reflect a bit. Think some more. Then try to have a peaceful, restful day. Thank you everyone so far who has sent me a birthday wish. It means alot to be part of your lives, even though many of us met through unforeseen circumstances.
A candle will burn brightly for Amanda today. Forever in my heart, never to be forgotten. xoxo
Make sure to listen to this song -